Tuesday, October 02, 2007.

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{ 8:11 PM }

Monday, October 01, 2007.

I seriously wonder what's so fun kissing outside my dorrstep.

This is the 3rd time I saw this same couple making out right outside my house, including right this moment. And guess what? Their kiss lasts for more than 1/2 hr. Though it's dark, there is no need for the Public Display of Affection right outside my house right.

At first, I thought I saw a guy outside holding a broom. It turns out she was not a broom, and the guy was hugging her outside. Oh gosh. I told my mom and she was the one who told me the answer -.-. Like wth? Can they at least go to a more decent place. Gosh.

ERINA

{ 8:58 PM }

I CANT BELIEVE I SCREWED CHEM & PHYSICS.

OH WELL, GIVE ME MORE MOTIVIATION FOR BIO.

ERINA.

{ 6:25 PM }

Sunday, September 30, 2007.

IM PISSED. VERY.
AS IN, I DONT GET WHAT'S THE POINT OF ME NOT MUGGING. WHY CANT I JUST FAIL? I WANT TO FAIL CHEM/PHYSICS TMR.

MY LIFE IS SIMPLY NOT GOING ANYWHERE. MY MIND IS BLANK. MAYBE TONIGHT I'LL REVISE, BUT THAT'S THAT. I TOLD MY MOM TO BUY ME TEA, SHE BOUGHT ME ONE WHOLE PACKET OF TEA. GREAT.

I REALISE THAT I CANT FAIL. BECAUSE EVERYONE EXPECTS ME TO PASS, NOT TOP, BUT PASS. AND I'LL BE LETTING EVERYONE DOWN IF I FAIL, BUT ISNT FAILING THE MOTHER OF ALL SUCCESS. OH GOSH WHAT CRAP IS THIS. I NEED TO FAIL. I WANT TO.

TEA.

TMR IS CHILDRENS DAY. HAPPY CHILDRENS DAY TO EVERYONE. I BELIEVE THAT EVERYONE IS A CHILD IN THEIR HEARTS.

ERINA.

{ 8:43 PM }

Friday, September 28, 2007.

I'm feeling so much better today.
Thanks all.

Thanks to Sharon, Megan, Christine, Martha, Yorkie, Joanna, Jolyne, Marie, Joey, Debbie, Cabby, Sinbing, Jerlyn, Tessa, Mel and whoever like cheered me up when I was down, who told be not to give up. Well, I appreciate if no one publise this or whatever. Haha XD

I dont know why. Today was one of those better days. Adrian didnt come, wore track pants under pinafore, new trend! YEAH. :D

Romeo & Juilet. The new "trend" in ELIT. LIKE WHATEVER. See X's face today? The Romeo&Juilet kiss today, she was with a wide grin. Obviously she wanted to excite herself and wanted to try to experience a kiss that she never got the chance to experience before. Hah!

Macs with Megan, Sharon, Joanna, Martha, Christine, Yorkie. Taught Sharon a little about physics.

ERINA.

{ 9:05 PM }

Thursday, September 27, 2007.

I guess I'll continue posting.
Cause I really want to. It became my daily routine.

Thanks for the forgiveness and such. I'm real tired today. Really tired. And I dont really know if I can keep my stamina up. I dont think I can. Projects and tests and such are just piling too much on me. I can just faint right now. I choose not to. I can survive this period of time, I will at least. Btw, it has nothing to do with my sleeping habits okay? I know myself. I know. You are not to tell me what I should do, I understand myself more than you do, so I would appreciate it if you just butt out of this, because I know how to manage my time. This is real polite already okay?

Math sucked. This was what I did to vent my anger:

• I threw my wallet repeatedly onto the board, with all my strength ever.
• I ripped down the noticeboard, and put it back up (sorry guys)
• I threw Xinhoon's chair down (sorry Xinhoon)
• I screamed my ear-piercing scream.
• I sang You are the music in me.

I felt so much better. SEA poster rocks.

ERINA.

{ 9:36 PM }

Wednesday, September 26, 2007.

Shall I leave this thing as it is?
What was I supposed to do?
What am I supposed to be feeling now?

I don't know what to do, with this matter and this blog. This blog holds too much memories of the past. Shall I make this blog private, shall I not post anymore, shall I leave this blog and create a new one?

I shall leave this here for the time being. Only time will tell.

ERINA.


-edited-
I'm really sorry to those I've hurt during this period of time. My life is screwed. I need time to calm down.

{ 4:06 PM }

Tuesday, September 25, 2007.

I'm sorry all for that previous post. I am sorry for being vulgar and stuff, but it was in a moment of pure anger which I couldnt control. I'm really, truthfully sorry.

I realised that there are actually people who care about me, and there are people who are close to me who are fake. I'm not accusing anyone at this point of time. It had always been like that, and I was super dumb to trust the person, thinking she's my real friend. If you dont like me, tell it straight to my face, why are you such a faker man? I wont do anything, seriously. It's not like I will punch you or anything, I would simply thank you and walk away. Is that such a hard thing to do?

To the people/person(which I know there are already 4 as obviously, I dont trust people that easily and who actually told me straight to my face and dont bitch about me [which only then i call a true friend]) who care about me, I really thank you. You have been the one, pushing me to greater heights, and you were always there to cheer me on, to encourage me when I'm down, to try and adivise me to become a better person. Thanks for being such a great, understanding friend.

To my dear readers, thanks for faithfully keeping in touch with this blog, making it alive. Thanks so much for the comments which you gave and advice you gave me on the board :D.

To my dear sixzerotwos, I love you guys, you know I do. And I'm real happy that I was in the same class as you guys. Jiayous for your EOYS and stuff as I know you guys are feeling stressed over them. I love you 6o2, it's part of my memory that will never be forgotten, even if I may die and my memory is lost, I would still remember you guys.

To Jerlyn, you dont really fall under any of these catergories. With that, it's just real unfortuante not to have you in the same class. Thanks for being my mugging buddy at night even though I may just give up halfway. I'm really sorry for the times I abandoned you to sleep. And you seriously rocks. Haha. Sorry for any sarcasm I may have pointed you with in the past.

To Qianyi, Celeste, Sinbing, Clara, Meredith. Thanks for being such great pals.


NOW I WONDER TO MYSELF,

• How to pull up grades?
• How to solve many friendship problems?
• How to appreciate people more?

Why does this suddenly seem like a suicide note?

ERINA.

{ 7:28 PM }