Wednesday, August 22, 2007.

Heyyo,

I'm depressed all over again.

I was happy when I came back, but when I thought of what Ms Rockey said, I felt depressed. I know everyone would be like, "oh Erina score so high complain what?". Well, you guys may think I score really high, but to my standard, it's just a pass. I know I could have done better. I didnt treat math seriously this term. Explain my low A1. I feel depressed.

Ms Rockey said that she would be very disappointed in me if I got lower than an A2. I dont even want to get an A2. But by the looks on how my math standard has been dropping, I cant help but even wonder if there was a way to save my falling PPR marks. On top of that, like what Sharon said, I'm gonna practice math like the whole entire day during the school holidays, so much till I would only break one day to go out with friends, the rest is of school.

I know you guys probably think I'm crazy having such a stupid plan. But I want to keep it. I really want to soar to greater heights. I know I must get 5 A1s by the end of this year. I have to. & if I cant even keep up the standard, I would probably fail my sec four Os. My expectation of myself has been very high since day 1. Failure, to me, is never an option unless I try my best. I really am engulfed by all the stress.

So now, the only thing left is to pull up my languages. From today, I will never ever sleep in any classes. You would see me (beside the languages lesson where there is nothing to copy), copying notes or doing practices. Never again will I make the same mistake I'm doing now. Never.

I'm learning from my mistake.

XOXO
ERINA.WAS.HERE

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