Tuesday, August 28, 2007.

& you wont see me cry.

Reflection part 2
I ended abit abruptly just now, probably due to homework thoughts which I thought I had lotsa things to do, realising that I have no homework. Isnt this just the most pathetic excuse ever?

But either way, onto, while, stuff, I really feel like emo, depressed now. I try not to use the word emo but then whatever, I have to use it. That;s the only word I can use to describe me now. Realise something? I'm always the happy happy girl who goes to school happily, smile days long, look like I'm an optimistic person. Okay fine I AM an optimistic person in everyone's view except nicole chan the new partner. But yeah, I think this is just a phase for me to hide the true feelings. I know it may seem real stupid, but I think those times where I'm not smiling are the times that I'm reflecting and/or thinking about something real deeply, and I carry this real looking fake smile.

Friendships are easily broken. It takes years to build, but takes just a minute to destroy. All my friendships stuff may be cheem(zikuaahem) but yeah, I mean, it's really true. The destruction of a friendship may even come unintentionally & no one tells you when you have just looked like you "broke" a friendship until it's too late to change reality.

Life is supposedingly be a time to make a one-time mistake. Then why when you make that mistake, no one really tries to understand and tries to be in your position. It's your outlook in life. I mean, what's the use of scoring good grades for exams for your future when you would have an unhappy future. Will it be worth living?

I may be exaggerating the grades thing too much. :))

& more importantly, one critism, even unintentionally, may just be that comment that may make the person whom you have critise, have low self-esteem. I'm not pinpointing to anyone at this stage of time, but I mean, Rosyth never had this problem. At least not in 6o2. I miss you guys <33

ERINA.

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